I'll be honest, when I was younger I always thought it was silly to get caught up in the age game, but now that I'm here - and maybe it's part of living in Manhattan - it's hard not to.
Feeling used up, washed up, no longer young, no longer even jealous bc I feel like I'm out of the running - this despite being consistently clocked for 4 - 8 years younger than my actual age.
So I have to wonder how much of this is just K. She is older than I am. She was a Ford model. I think she puts more stock into the age/beauty game.
I have been looking for celebrity inspiration. Heidi Klum is transitioning nicely from her modeling career. Jennifer Aniston, Cameron Diaz, a bit older than me and both single (and I have to ignore the celebrity-industrial caricatures of these ladies). Women into their forties still looking awesome and doing cool stuff.
And that is, in case you missed it, the other half: not just being older, but being single and being older. And for me, too, being late to school, wishing I had some sort of legal career, following politics and policy, wondering if my MBA will truly be worth it.
Anyway. As I think it through, I'm pretty happy with where I'm at. I think there are outside influences causing me to question my contentment.
