Whiff

I didn't get the job.

I've been talking to senior people within my company though, watching for what happens as we continue to re-organize.

I have another interview tomorrow.

ALso, got my hat in the ring at a few places - I applied blind, so I don't expect to hear much.

I do take comfort in the fact that it's just a tough job market. It's tough for everyone. A friend of mine looking to hire got 75 applications for one position - it's pretty specialized and requires in-depth trade knowledge. Everyone remotely connected seems to be applying.

So, they let me down easy. Told me I was a great candidate and didn't do anything wrong. I aced the interviews.

There was just someone else with more experience in front of me.

I keep coming in second. Damn.

Anxiety

So this is turning out to be a very interesting autumn - an interesting year if we count graduating from school, and buying an apartment. These are no small changes.

I'm up for a job that I can't stop thinking about. I've had four, perhaps five interviews, soup to nuts - the first guy, the hiring guy, the owner, some guy in Germany checking my language skills. It is exactly the kid of job that I want. I should know by next week whether I've got it. I'm trying hard not to worry about it, think about it too much. But I do.

I've had other interviews. I've met people at work. My company is splitting in two and there is a great deal of uncertainty. I'm looking for opportunities all over.

I went to Disneyworld, had a family vacation. THAT was awesome. I have a niece and nephew, the perfect ages, 8 and 13 respectively. I spent time with my brother and his wife. We all went swimming and snorkeling together. It was a great holiday.

A friend of mine died, in roughly the same period. SHe was diagnosed about a month before I closed on my home. She passed away just a few weeks after holiday, in the midst of interviews.

So yeah, big year. The wheel keeps turning.